Jay Jay

Reporting In!

2009-06-21T15:42:00.003+08:00

So, yesterday was kind of the rushy-kind-of-day 'cause I totally forgot it's the 4th week and what does that mean? The 2nd bi-weekly report! I woke up around 2pm and started freaking out. These 2 weeks was seriously the most boring weeks ever! All I do was, drive to work, sit, wait for lunch, sit, wait for the time to go back, drive home and sit again. Yeah, that was I do... almost everyday for the past 2 weeks.

And guess how long my bi-weekly report was? 3 pages, dude! Yeah... 2 weeks of nothing-ness and 3 pages of crap! Even the first bi-weekly report has only 2 pages and that week was the most hectic week EVER! *I just type some similar, I'm repeating =.="*.

I even asked Ms Clare if that's the correct way to write the report, because I wrote it as if I'm writing my blog. Expressing feelings and stuff like that. Let me print screen one part and let you guys have a look.

Putting my free time to good use huh? LOL! Limit my creativity and knowledge! LOL!
Yeah! Tell me about it!
*I don't mean literally, seriously. One of my friend took it literally and TOLD-ME-ABOUT-IT! No offence, but there's another meaning!*

But hey, I'm really putting my free time to good use. As least I'm not wasting my time or anything, right? Yeah, my previous post is just something I did for just a few hours and it doesn't make any sense... So, yesterday I spent some time creating an intro for my blog. I know my blog is OLD! but it's just a thought. I don't know what to do anymore and I really want to try out a lot of stuff in After Effects. The 25-second animation *which was later prolonged to 45-second by slowing down the speed to give a better enviromental feel* took me almost a day to finish. Because I was a noob. :( I don't know anything about editing, anything about files, anything about AE and got stuck there for some unknown reason! *cries*

I just finished everything from the VFX to the SFX and oh yeah, my Windows Movie Maker died on me, now I can't compress my god damn 200MB-25-seconds-file. I'm using some other alternative in Premiere Pro! I don't think it can be fixed unless I reformat my computer? Oh god! I'm lazy to reformat my computer and I was kinda pissed of with After Effects today because everytime I want to render my animation, it stopped responding. *Pissed off* Probably I'll just dual-boot to XP and work there. Maybe, soon...

So, I'll just end my blog with my intro to the blog.
*Woah, who ends with an intro? Doesn't intro always come first?*
Hahaha, and the person is me! Hey, do comment, ya?
Your constructive comments are much appreciated.

Free Time - After Effect

2009-06-19T00:56:00.002+08:00

Just something I'd learned during my freetime in the office. Came back from work, adapt all the knowledge I had gained and TADA!! LOL... Lame post.

Relay for Life '09 and Internship

2009-05-31T23:34:00.004+08:00

So, I was in Relay for Life '09 event last night because I was one of the crews there. Which was supposedly the graphic designer but ended up being some worker around there.

Okay, I wasn't very fond with the management, which is the event company I'm working with. All I can say is, there's only one full-time staff. Other details, you can actually figure out and also why there's only one full-time staff. There are 5 interns including me. 3 not getting paid. 2 getting paid because they are foreign students. :) So...abusing interns. I don't know how much they get paid but this is what pisses me off, they get to come in whenever they wants, go out whenever they like, not appearing in the office whenever they wish to! Not only that, they are like super damn free. They come in, play facebook, play MSN, Y!Msger and then go back. Not that I don't do that, but not the whole day man.

So, then I had sleepless night this week because of the stupid fucking idiot client from NCSM that wants to change this and change that and yada yada yada. Ok fine. That's GDer, I know.

THEN... it comes to this, Relay for Life event, be there at 8am till 10am. Not 2 hours ya... 26 FUCKING HOURS! So I had a big huge fight with my mum 'bout this and she said she want to sue the company and bla bla bla... That leads to a personal problem it seems. I need to talk to my supervisor.

Then, I thought of maybe like going at 1pm on Saturday because I really need my rest. It's been like sleepless night doing what that client wants. But guess what happened on SATURDAY MORNING at 7AM, had a call to go there now? Nah... I wasn't being called to be there on time but INSTEAD, I was called to DESIGN another signage. OH MY FUCKING GOD! Yesterday was so hectic! *I'll leave what happen on Friday to myself because it's just too much to talk about it...* The printer was like already shouting that we must not do something like this. This is too last minute. The event is in like 6 hours and you need to PRINT another signage?! There you go, I get lectures for something I didn't do, not once, not twice but more than that. So much for the "1pm-on-Saturday" thingy. My time to rest... :(

I called Sin Nee to go with me cause I know I'll be like damn bored, because you know why? I shouldn't be there in the first place, maybe yes, to confirm all the designs, the banners, the buntings are in the correct place. There. Job finished. Can I go now? NO! Stay there and DAYDREAM! Sin Nee was there until around 5pm then I fetched her back because I feel sorry for her because she was like so lost, supposedly to come with Yit Mey so at least one doesn't feel left off if I'm like busy, and she had to pay RM10 just for the event. No bloody idiots told me about that. Not even the company. So much for an event company that is managing this event right? And from then onwards, I realized the true meaning of good friends. *refer to my previous post*

*skips a lot of unnecessary details about me being bored the whole day*

At around 4am, all of us was worned out. Then the damn bloody 'kedekut' boss asked us to go back for a shower and come back in 2 hours time. HELLO? You think I stay at where? 2 minutes drive from here? 20 fucking minutes okay, and only if I speed! Then he went already, left me and the full-time staff, Sheena. So we bitched... And I suddenly recall, where's one of the intern,Shima, that gets paid? I asked Sheena, she told me she didn't come for the event.

WHAT THE FUCK?!

An intern that gets paid, doesn't need to do anything in the office and coming in and out whenever she likes -VERSUS- An intern that doesn't get paid instead pay to get work, do everything about on the designs of the whole event and coming in and out right on time.

I get PWNED nicely!

Come on, this is so not fair right? What the hell is this? I straight away went home after finding out the TRUTH!

These are the photos I took yesterday on my designs.

The stage with the big backdrop. There's a second backdrop and surprisingly it was not USED! How convenient as that backdrop is one of the last few items to be CONFIRMED.

The 'Welcome Banner' in front of the stadium.

The Saturday-7A.M. design. I recieved a SMS from the middle-man which is the forwarded message from the client.

"Can Whiz do this quickly? > LUPA BUAT GARDEN SIGN! can help? not so serious.. colourful.."

If I were the person who recieve this, I will definately decline. Because the printer already said no last minute work and he cannot make it on time if we were to print anything extra. You 'LUPA BUAT GARDEN SIGN!', so what? TGK MUKA I, ADA I KESAH?

The Notice Board. I was not happy with the final output. This is what happen when you want to SAVE COST.

You can see there are so many bulges. Overlapping stickers. My god, I feel so unappreciated for my own design. "YOU" want to save cost also don't need to save until this extend. Can also print it on material like the Photowall which is flawless.

From the left : Suresh, Elisa and Benny.

This is the Photowall, one of the worst things to do among all designs. You need to make sure that you measure all the logos in the same size and supposedly, all logo must have the exact same number, but the middle-man between me and the fucking client said just leave it. If need to have the exact numbers, then we need Mathematician. My Mathematics sucks OK!

Look at the Photowall, half of it is abit grey-ish right? And guess what, I was the one to be blame because my AI file may have abit grey on it. Fucker, the file is in one AI file, one Artboard, and WHITE BACKGROUND! How the fuck would it be my problem? Use common sense la, Boss, it's so obvious the base of the Photowall is grey or even black.

I was so bored, and I actually call another person to come and teman me, but that person didn't come, so that also leads to what I finally realized is just a friend instead of a good friend. *refer to my previous post*

The only thing I was happy about the WHOLE event is meeting my favourite singer JACLYN VICTOR. And out of 26 hours, which is actually 22 hours. I was happy for 10 minutes. Worth it? Nah... I don't think so. I can meet her anytime I want for goodness sake.

This ends my blabbers about the event and the company.
I e-mailed Ms Clare for an appointment tomorrow as I need to talk to her about all these problems as I'm facing financial problems, personal problems such as my mum is not happy with all these and not forgetting about FAIRNESS!

The true definition of...

2009-05-31T21:30:00.005+08:00

a best friend and a friend.

From Gan Jay Han's dictionary of life...

Friend - Someone who might misuse you as their slave when they need you but when you need them, they are no where to be found. Even if you found them, reasons will be given to be excused for not helping you. Some which are not even reasonable to be excused. They are also the one that doesn't appreciate you when you help them. That's just friend.

As a summary,
When they need you,
You're there for them,
But when you need them,
They are nowhere to be found.

Best friend - Someone who cares for you, who suffer with you, who is happy when you are happy, who is sad when you are sad, who will cheer you up whenever you're down, who help you through various obstacles that you can not go through. Someone who also remembers the deed you did for them and waiting for their chance to pay back. That's a best friend.

As a summary,
When they need you,
They'll appreciate you the most,
And whenever you need them,
they are always there for you.

I've just change my perspective of viewing a person.
A few people had been dropped off from my list of these two categories.
I'm very sorry, but this is what you get for treating me this way.
And I'll just treat you guys back the same.
It's KARMA, what goes around, comes around. Thanks

Selamat Tinggal

2009-05-10T17:50:00.004+08:00

This song's lyric totally express what I want/need/about/hope to say...

Kata akhir selamat tinggal
Keputusanku bukan kejutan
Inilah yang terbaik buat diriku dan dirimu
Kini kau bebas pergi

Usah ditanya mengapa
Kau tahu jawapannya
Usahlah lagi kau berpura pura
Muakku dengan sikapmu
Yang tidak pernah jujur
Permainkan hati dan perasaan
Ku lepaskan kau pergi

Jangan cuba kau merayu
Tiada lagi peluang sudah terlewat

Usah ditanya mengapa
Kau tahu jawapannya
Usahlah lagi kau berpura pura
Muakku dengan sikapmu
Yang tidak pernah jujur
Permainkan hati dan perasaan

Biarku tanggung semuanya
Dari hidup merana
Ku doakan kau bahagia dengannya
Ku lepaskan kau pergi
Ku lepaskan kau pergi
Selamat tinggal

*edited*

I found this person's blog with the same lyrics on it...
I would like to quote each and every word that was written there.

"it is soooooooo hard to let go of a friend whom you have decided to sayang with all your heart.. eventhough aku penah kata yg aku sayang semua sahabat aku walau apa jua perangai diorang, tapi aku tak leh tahan yg ni... it hurts so much.. i have to let all this go... for my sake.. tak apa kalau dia tak pernah appreciate persahabatan kitorang.. aku tak tau dia ni faham ke tak maksud sahabat.. mungkin aku hanya seorang kawan biasa untuk dia.. so, mana laa dia nak kisah perasaan aku kan.."

Digital Imaging - Assignment

2009-03-22T12:23:00.002+08:00

Fashion Shot

Product Shot

Glamour Shot

Food & Beverages Shot

Trying Out...

2009-03-01T23:45:00.003+08:00

I just tried out some portrait shot with my "spotlight". It doesn't seem to work, I wonder why... Not enough lighting? Probably it's just because there's only one light source.

These photos had been photoshop-ed to enhance the emo feel.

She's saying : Two Boyfriends are better than One...

Thinkin'... 'bout life...

"Why do I live life this way?"

The next photo is not photoshop-ed, some things are just best to leave it that way.

"What should I do?"

All those photos above has this kind of lighting, but those 3 that I photoshop-ed, the lighting is not really as nice as this one...

Arghhhh... How am I going to shoot the Fashion shot and Personality shot?

Back and Better!

2009-03-01T13:50:00.007+08:00

Yuuu huuu... I'm back....

Guess this time, I'll post more photos instead of babbling about my atrocious life where I go emo and stuff like that. I'll keep them to myself like how some of you keep it to yourself. Some things are just better to keep them.

Went IKEA last few days and bought a table lamp with a spotlight-light-bulb (I don't know what you called it...), but it's incandescent light bulb, I want those fluorescent light bulbs, white lights... and guess what, fluorescent light bulbs cost 20X more than the incandescent ones. Gosh... RM100, say bye-bye...

Anyways, I’m quite happy with it, I sort of "picked" up a mini studio. It’s so cool, I never liked Digital Photography, ‘cause it’s outdoor and I hate outdoor.

I fell in love with Studio Photography... It’s just so cool...

These are a few photos from my “Mini Studio”, they are also part of my second Digital Imaging assignment.

Bubble Gums - Bubbly Bubble Gums

Sweets and Candies - Sweety Sweets Candies.

Bowl with Fruit-like candies - A bowl partially full with candies.

Cmei's Lucky Candy - Candies with an additional touch of Cmei's Lucky Candy Cane. Just found out that, the candy cane has broke into 3 pieces. I didn't know until I saw the picture... What does this mean? Luck gone? :(

L'oreal Men Expert Hydra Energetic Detox Cleansing Foam - Focused on the product title, Hydra Energetic. My product for the product shot assignment. Full set of L'oreal Men Expert Hydra Energetic Facial Care... soon...

Uncle Flower - A character from a japanese cartoon series. 花老爷。。。
This is with the incandescent lighting... Yellowish...

Special thanks to Cmei, "educating" me on how to use Flickr.

Departing again...

2008-12-19T17:23:00.002+08:00

我们又分开了。。。
三个礼拜, 不是很久也不是很短的时间。。。
我会想念你们，我的好朋友。。。
你自己知道你是谁。。。

We depart again,
3 weeks, not a long nor a short period,
I'll miss all of you, my best friends...
You know who you are...

3 weeks, what the hell can I do? Well... nothing much...
sleep, play, dream, sleep, play, dream... and it goes on and on and on...
Oh, did I forget to mention EAT? :P...

I'm off to play my Left 4 Dead...
Bwai, Luv ya all...

Lazy

2008-12-01T00:56:00.002+08:00

I lost interest in blogging... LOL
I'll probably be back soon, since it's semester break soon...
That's the only time I'm free...

Free from everything...
Except "something"...

意义/Worth

2008-07-13T20:59:00.001+08:00

我在你生活里真的没有意义吗？

当你面对困难，我尽我能力去帮你。
当你要去任何一个地方，我会尽我能力去跟随你.
当你伤心的时候, 我尽我能力守候在你身边.
当你生病的时候, 我能做的只有为你祈祷.
但你知道我的存在吗？

我可以一辈子陪你面对所有的困难，
你想要拥有的,我愿意给你。
可是我能给的，不是你想要拥有的。
对不起。

你是我爱的人，可是，不是我的爱人。
你是我爱的人，可是，你已经有了爱人。
我在你生活里真的没有意义吗？

Am I not worth being in your life?

When you face problems, I try my best to help you
When you want to go somewhere, I try my best to follow you
When you’re down, I try my best to be you
When you’re sick, all I could do is to pray for you
But do you realize my existence?

I could follow you and face all the obstacles in your life
Anything that I could give you, I’m willing to give
But the things you want, I could not provide it
I’m sorry.

You’re the one I loved, but you’re not my lover.
You’re the one I loved, but you’ve the one you loved.
Am I not worth being in your life?

我死心/It's over

2008-06-26T20:53:00.008+08:00

我死心

我死心吧，
我会离开你，
让你幸福，
我不会变这么自私，
应为我喜欢你，
不代表你一定要喜欢我。

再见，
各位朋友，
我会想着你们，
我会偷偷看你们，
小小声问你们好不好，
可是，你们看不到我也听不到我的声音。

我在这个世界也没有意思了，
活下去也让我跟痛苦，
谢谢，至少你有当我是你的朋友。

It's over

It's over,
I'll leave you alone,
Let you search for your happiness,
I'm not that self-centered,
Just because I love you,
It doesn't mean that you have to love me.

Good bye,
My friends,
I'll always remember you,
I'll peek you guys when I'm free,
Softly ask if you're okay when I'm there,
But you'll never see or hear me.

Living in this world has no meaning anymore,
Even if I continue, I'll suffer,
Thank you, at least you're willing to treat me as your friend.

p.s.

我没有跟你讲过我很喜欢你，
可是，我也不敢讲，
是因为，我怕我们连朋友也不能做。

我不要，可是我不能。
你是**，我也***,
为什么我会喜欢你，
我自己也不明白。
我为什么会****？

我愿意/ I'm willing

2008-06-26T00:00:00.004+08:00

我愿意

你/妳说，
要我做什么也好，
如果你遇到什么困难我愿意帮你，
我愿意。

我什么都愿意，
只不愿意你/妳把我当是普通朋友。

I'm willing

You asked for me,
To do whatever you want me to do,
To help you when you are encountering problems,
I'm willing to do so.

I'm willing to do anything,
Just that I'm not willing to accept that you only see me as your friend.

我不怪你/妳 - I'll never blame you

2008-06-24T22:44:00.003+08:00

我不怪你/妳

我不怪你/妳，
做了什么错，
你/妳也不想的，
不要紧，我原谅你/妳。

要怪也怪我自己，
不会想，
不会做，
不会牺牲，
怪自己那么笨。

什么事也好，
我也不会怪你/妳...

I'll never blame you

I won't blame you,
Whatever that you've done wrong,
You never did it on purpose,
It's okay, I'll forgive you.

If it has to be blamed,
blame it on me, for,
not able to think,
not able to do,
not able to sacrifice,
blame myself for being so stupid.

Whatever it is,
I'll never blame you.

我跟他/她不一樣吗?/Am I that different?

2008-06-24T01:31:00.006+08:00

我跟他/她不一樣吗?

每天，我想着你/妳。
可是你/妳就跟他/她谈天，
你/妳跟他，
谈话的语气也都跟我一模一样。

我想着你/妳，
想跟你/妳谈天，
想跟你/妳一起，
想你/妳在我身边，
可是，我跟他/她不一樣吗?

Am I that different

Everyday, I think about you.
But, you always talk to him/her,

With him/her,
The ways you talk differ than how you talk to me.

I think about you,
Wish to talk to you,
Wish to go out with you,
Wishing for you to be by my side,
But, am I really that different than him/her?

我能吗？/ Could I?

2008-06-22T17:52:00.004+08:00

我能吗？

我们是两个世界的人。
谈话也不一样，
两个不同的语言，
我要跟你谈天，
可是，我能吗？

我怕，
我爬，
我想，
我要，
可是，我能吗？

Could I?

We are from two different worlds,
The way we talk differs,
Two languages that are not known to each other,
I wish to have a little chat with you,
Even a little, but could I?

I climb,
I try,
I hope,
I wish,
But, could I?

My first chinese poem... Written and translated by myself also...

Breathe In, Breathe Out

2008-06-05T21:35:00.005+08:00

LOL! My topic has nothing to do about me giving birth or anything similar. As if I can give birth. Anyways I'm currently suffering from an asthma attack. It usually happens when I breathe in not-so-clean air or dust. I'm really allergic to those. I'll start to sneeze non-stop and an asthma attack will occur but I don't think I involve myself in any of those earlier.

I'm sneezing like mad now while typing out this post, having breathing difficulty.

I hate History of Art and Design, the subject and the person who teaches it, SERIOUSLY! Oh god, she's so stupid, has some kind of freaking attitude, shouty voice and everything bad! ARGH! I just SO hate her-lah! Pissing off. I was rushing for the essay yesterday night, just to find out that she'll be busy tomorrow, which means no presentation. WTF-lah? She's full of nonsense, today she started the lecture without lecture notes for us, OK fine! Then she asked Alicia to go and get the lecture notes at PC, but we are in PG! It's like 10 minutes walk from PG to PC, meaning 20 minutes to get back the lecture hall. She didn't tell us how much we have to pay for the notes or what we have to take. So, I thought one stack only, which means today's lecture note. I asked Hui Fang to fetch me there and get the notes cause Alicia and I parked in Jaya One, don't want to waste RM2 just to go in and come out again. When I reached there, I was so shocked to see 2 boxes of notes and a total amount of RM299.40. I only have RM100 in my wallet. So f***ing furious that time, almost exploded because that b***h didn't even say anything. I called Alicia to come and take the notes and bring the money. Wasted-lah her parking fee. Went into the class with that damn 'mm song' face looking at her. Not enough of the misery, lecture notes was already brought into the class, she didn't even bother to take the time to pass out the notes until the break time. STUPID, OK?!

READ THIS!
NO ONE WAS LISTENING TO YOUR LECTURE OK?
I DOUBT ANYONE REMEMBERS ANYTHING YOU SAID!

Breathe... Must not get too furious, later die from suffocation.

Probably some good news for myself, I probably get a new phone for myself with 3G functions. Okay, I admit, I'm a bit outdated. I'm not wealthy, can't afford anything. This phone is also an offer offered by Maxis for registering a new line. This is a bad news for me, which means I'll have to change number. I got like I-don't-know-how-many-hundred friends to inform. So, should I change or should I not? Still making decision. Hahaha... If I decided to get that, you guys can video-call-me already! I can see you and you can see me! YAY!

Learn more stuff in Desktop Publishing II today. Let's see, Mesh tool and 3D Revolve tool. Seriously cool-lah wieh! According to T4, their tutor didn't teach them these stuff, why? I kinda like their tutor and I was so envy that she was teaching T4. But now, I feel sad for them. I teach you all-lah kay? =P

Need to start doing DTP II first assignment already, designing 3 postcards. One of my sketches was chosen which is the Petronas Twin Tower, I bet I'll have hard time making that ONE postcard.

For some reason, I started to breathe normally now. Probably because I released all my anger here earlier. LOL!

Adios!

Walking on the memories

2008-06-03T23:33:00.004+08:00

Went out with my foundation friends today, we planned this gathering for like I-don't-know-how-many-months. One year has passed since our last meeting/gathering, now I'm already in Year 2. So many things had happened last year that I don't even know about and I happen to find out all today, it's too much to handle so many shocking news.

Everyone changed, by their looks, the way they talk, and you know what? I don't even realize that they are my age. I'm too used to being the "youngest" in my course.

Today was an 'okay' day in UTAR. There's something I wouldn't forget for probably my entire semester. One of my favourite lecturers, Ms Emelia, asked me a weird question. She asked if I was from tutorial 3! Oh My God! How could she forget me?! Nooo... But then, if she doesn't remember I'm from Tutorial 3, and then who's the class representative for Tutorial 3? Freaky...

Ms Ida is a quite okay to me, well, humble and nice. It will take sometime for her to replace Ms Clare Tan in my heart. LOL! I don't love her but I just like her. I learn that blending tool which is extremely cool. I didn't know Illustrator can do such a thing.

I shall keep all my foundation secrets to myself. I'm very tired now.
I'm going to sleep. Good night.

Took this picture from the sticker kiosk. There are 2 more pictures and I'm waiting for Hwee Ling to send it to me!

Totally random
God, please help me...
Am I born to be like this? Can't I really change?
Or is it my destiny or fate to be like this?

I've been tagged!

2008-06-01T20:36:00.003+08:00

Was ~~forced~~ told to...

Real name: Gan Jay Han
Nickname: Revolution, Jay Jay, Ryan
Married: Let's see... I don't even remember...
Zodiac Sign: Aries
Male or Female: Non-existence! LOL!

High School: SMK Methodist A.C.S Klang
College: UTAR
Short or long hair: Short
Are you a health freak?: Well, sometimes... but normally No!
Height: 175cm, 5"9 maybe
Do you have a crush on someone?: Hahaha... Yea! Both male and female! >:| *evil grins*
Do you like yourself?: Er, I'm born like this... So I can't choose...
Piercings: None!
Righty of lefty: Righty!

FIRST*
First surgery: I think it was my tougue, something grew in there when I was 6.
First piercing(s): None...
First best friend: Everyone is my best friend. It's either best friend or enemy only!
First award: Pelajar Terbaik! XD, Seriously, I'm not joking!
First sport you joined: Never liked sports, that's why I'm so fat! LOL
First pet: Should be that unwanted Shin Tzu outside my house now.
First vacation: Err... Genting, I think... with my late father and family.
First concert: Malaysian Idol! JACLYN VICTOR!
First crush: I don't remember lah. - Not telling because it's part of the Penang confession session! Everything said in that room must not leaked! -

CURRENTLY*
Doing: Blogging this thingy!
Eating: Sisa-sisa makanan yang ada kat celah gigi...
Drinking: My own saliva - Copied from 20! XD -
I’m about to: Fall asleep, too boring!

YOUR FUTURE*
Wants kids: Hmm... 100, who's willing to give birth to this amount, contact me please!
Want to get married: Don't know-lah!
Careers in mind: As long as the job pays me 4 figures that are reaching 5 figures!

WHICH ONE IS BETTER*
Lips or eyes: Eyes!
Hugs or kisses: Kisses!
Shorter or taller: In between!
Romantic or spontaneous: Who cares? Both also has its advantages.
Nice stomach or nice arms: Not important.
Trouble maker or hesitant: Don't trouble me!

HAVE YOU EVER*
Kissed a stranger: Never.
Drank bubbles: WTH?!
Lost glasses or contacts: Never.
Run away from home: Planned but never succeeded.
Liked someone younger: Hmm... Yea...
Liked someone older: I think so...
Broken someone’s heart: As far as I know, none.
Been arrested: Nope!
Turned someone down: Don't remember.
Cried when someone died: Of course la wieh! Own family member died, takkan LAUGH?
Liked a friend: I like everyone! =)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN*
Yourself: Almost never, I looked down on myself.
Miracles: Yes!
Love at first sight: Yes Yes Yes Yes!
Heaven: Nope.
Sex on the first date: Maybe!
Angels: Nope.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY*
Is there one person you want to be with right now: Maybe yes, maybe no!
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time: I only have one heart meaning I'll only love one person at one time!
Do you believe in God: Sometimes, when something miraculously happened.

People I tag:

Yee Leng already tagged those I know, so I don't need to type already!
Go to her blog and see if you've been tagged!

Regeneration

2008-06-01T13:40:00.005+08:00

Well, it seems like years since I last update this blog. I doubt anyone actually remember the existence of this blog.

A few reasons why I thought of re-blogging, the first and utmost is because Ms Yuen, my Interactive Multimedia lecturer told us to blog. The others would be a few of my friends who frequently asking me to update my blog.

Nothing much, I could blog about for the past few months and blog about my Penang trip, but I'm too lazy. Overall would be that, we learn more about one or another. Secrets were shared, maybe not secrets. Feelings!

Now, I'm frustrating about my Packaging Design's product, supposed to choose a typical Malaysian snack food, which I have no idea what it is. I have a few choices but I don't know whether it'll work. What if I chose that and I can't come out with a nice design? I want to maintain my CGPA!

I'd hate History for all my life, and now there's History of Arts and Design I, OMG! There's II as well, I hope I don't fail this freaking subject because I'd never pass History, even in SPM. I failed. LOL! And I'm still proud of it! The lecturer, Oh My God! I think I'll fail!

To get good results, you need to 'LOVE' the subject and also 'LOVE' whoever that is teaching it. But, I don't 'LOVE' any of them!

I do love something this semester! My group mates, it was randomly picked by a drawing of numbers. Coincidentally, and this is really cute! My surname is Gan, Sin Nee's surname is Gan also, but we are not brother and sister. Kean Yew's surname is Tan, Chee Pan's surname is Tan too! And they are not brothers. The combination of surnames will be, Gan Gan Tan Tan. (It was really placed like this, freaky though) When you actually read the combination of the surnames in Cantonese, it'll be Simple and Easy!

I wish to stick to this group for all the assignments this semester! I don't want to change!
I DON'T CARE! I DON'T WANT! READ MY LIPS!

I!!!
DON'T!!!
WANT!!!

OK-lah, I'm going to do my research on the freaking subject! Bwai...

Transfering from one to another

2007-10-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

Phew... today was a mess. I totally screwed up my PC earlier.

All I wanted was to reformat it but without a rebootable disc, it is impossible. So I thought maybe I could like install one Windows XP in one of my hard drives and then format C:\ drive. I have 2 hard drives, C:\ and D:\ , so I installed it and run D:\ drive's Windows XP.

God, everything is like gone. Graphic Card drivers, Sound Card drivers... All GONE! Well, I did freaked out because the display is freaking creepy. See this!

Eww, the colour is so disgusting. Feels like puking soon.

Tried formatting the C:\ drive but some errors appeared saying some program is being used. Argh, damn! Fortunately, I can online from that new Windows XP. No Windows Live Messenger but there's Windows Messenger and I logged in and ask Yao Ding for help! *laughs* Tried everything I could but still no progress and then I saw something scary which is going to make me have nightmares tonight.

Oh My God! GHOSTS! *screams*

Hahaha... That's the effect of a computer without a graphic card. Mine was without it's driver which will also have the same effect. That's when I realised that new Windows XP doesn't have the driver. I opened up Internet Explorer and typed Yahoo!'s URL but then it crashes for nothing. I was going to freak out already because if I can't search for the driver, I'm so dead. Thanks to Google.com which didn't crashed the IE on me.

Got all the drivers and stuffs but there's another problem I can't format C:\ drive. So, I tried deleting folder by folder which took me almost 30 mins. So many folders , so many stuffs. No wonder the whole computer is so slow. But it pays off, I'm currently LAG-FREE. Not for long, I guess.

After deleting everything in C:\ drive,installing Windows XP, drivers and other appropriate stuffs, I have a new PC, yay to me! Y ^_^ Y!

Choo Yen's Windows Live Messenger installer file is so outdated. Every installer from her is outdated from WLM to WLM Plus and BitComet. LOL! Kinda sad because after installing the latest WLM, I found out that all my DP is gone. My lovely display pictures! *sobs*

Installed all needed stuffs already, Adobe Photoshop, Adobe Illustrator and Windows Live Messenger. There's another one I have yet to download, which is the Microsoft Office. Have to wait for my BitComet to download finish first. *sighs*

Well I guess that's all for today. I'll be enjoying my "new" PC now.

Restarting...

2007-10-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

I guess it's time to re-blog AGAIN. I don't even remember this is my how-many-times-I've-reblog article. Probably the 5th? The 8th? Or maybe the 21st? Argh, whatever... It's not important. As long I have the passion to continue.

Say, where should I start? It's been 3 months, almost 4 months to be exact. I've gone through so many things these few months. Made a lot of friends in that short period of time. Well, I guess I won't be blogging about what happen last few months, it will be like a massive article which is endless.

Ugly Betty Season 2 is out already and on the run. I just love this show so much and so eager to watch Season 2 when Season 1 ended with a cliffhanger and until yesterday Choo Yen told me ~~Ugly ChooYen~~ (Ooops.. "Tersasul"-lah") Ugly Betty Season 2 is out. The first thing that went through my mind was TORRENT! To my surprise, it's already in Episode 5 which means I've been left out for 5 weeks (and you too, Choo Yen).

I've been so excited and apparently I've type -Ugly Better Season 2 IS OUT!- as my personal message in MSN. "Malu" shit! I woke up this morning around 9a.m. and saw this particular message which I was received around 10p.m. last night.

(10:53 PM) lOvE dEmoN: ugly betty or ugly better?

Goodness, embarrassing! And today, I've watched all 5 episodes. Can't wait for the end of the week when Episode 6 will be released. By the way, that's from Jackson.

I tried to do some Adobe Illustrator homework that Asir asked me to do. For the sake of god, how the hell do you make the curve so perfect? It's merely impossible. I have to put my face on the screen to make my first logo perfect and that's because it only uses lines. I'm going to be blind if I continue to do all the logo like that. So pissed off with Illustrator now and not going to touch that stupid program until my anger fades away.

That's all for today, I guess.

P.S. Yao Ding said I add spices to my blog. I don't add anything irrelevant, and it's PURELY NATURAL! *laughs* He also mentioned that I imagine something wild, erotic and farfetch which I'm not going to tell YOU!

No Life, Dude or Babe

2007-06-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

Okay, studying in the crazy course seriously got no time to blog at all. Every minute is assignment time. I still got so many logo left to draw. I still need to sketch a lot of things. This sucks, seriously.

Mr.Gummy-Boy tagged me on this survey thingy and Thank God, it's short and simple so I could get this article done quickly.

1) 5 Things That Are Found In My Bag
- Designer's Stationaries (Including sketch book and other stuffs)
- A4 Size File
- SmartTag
- Car & House Key
- Drinking Bottle

2) 5 Things That Are Found In My Wallet
- Money (Like durh?)
- Identification Card
- Driving License
- Coins
- Receipts

3) 5 Favourite Things In Your Room
- TV
- PS2
- Comic Books
- Computer
- Air-Conditioner

4) 5 Things You Always Wanted To Do
- Getting CGPA 4.0 , First Class Honours (LOL! Which is almost impossible for me!)
- Being loved by someone I like (Whether it's female or male! Hahaha... If I like then it's okay.)
- Win some reality TV show (I know! I love fame, in a good way though.)
- Travel somewhere other than Selangor (I never travelled anywhere before, kinda sad.)
- Become a famous singer? (Almost same as the third.)

5) 5 things you're currently into
- Blog (I want to but I just cannot find any free time.)
- Assignments (God, this course is killing me.)
- Buying handphone
- Get to know all my classmates
- Becoming a good assistant course representative to Li Yen and class representative for Tutorial 3

6) 5 people that you wish to tag
- Choo Yen
- Wai Teng
- (Whoever interested?)
- (Whoever interested?)
- (Whoever interested?)

I got a big hoo-hah issue on UTAR, which I will not be able to blog about it today. Maybe in a few days time, I'll tell you the big hoo-hah thingy.

English, I heart you

2007-06-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah, I love English, I'm so in love with English.

Communicative English is going to be my most favourite subject for this semester.

There's seriously no one from UTAR's Foundation Programme. I'm so shocked. I'm the only one, but why? Where did all the students from foundation go? So, I was the only one and Miss Chan which is my Communicative English lecturer doesn't know how to operate the laptop, OHP, projector and etc. She asked whether anyone knows how to operate it and everyone kept quiet. *laughs* Including me. After 5 minutes since that question pop-up, my friends urge me to go and set the whole thing up. Maybe I'm really the only one who knows how to operate it.

Miss Chan asked me about UTAR's Foundation Programme's English Language whether it's good enough, I replied that it is just okay. I told her that I'm actually English-educated because I really don't know Chinese Language. Well I can speak and listen, just can't read and write. *laughs* English-educated in a Malay-medium, she corrected. Speechless. *......* She asked for my name when I was setting up the equipments and I said that I'm Ryan but she said she cannot find my name on the list. So, I told her that my real name is Jay Han, Ryan is just a nick name. She said it's a nice name and very unique, why have a nick name? *Dang, she's like the I-don't-know-how-many-people who said the same thing* It’s okay, majority calls me Jay Han.

No... *cries*

I'm not the youngest, I'm NOT! There are 2 other 1988's in my course and why am I born in the month of March, they are younger than me. *sobs* Just found out when I took Li Yen's name list and have a look on it. There's only 3 1988's including myself. *sad* There's one part which is damn funny. In that list, he/she was suppose to write his/her D.O.B (Date of Birth) and he/she did write it, but he/she ~~was born~~ going to be born on July 2007. *laughs* He/She is a future baby that can write in the past, how cool is that?

Now, I'm the class representative for Tutorial 3. Scared, although I know the whereabouts of UTAR. If there's something wrong, all will be blamed on the representatives. *sighs*

Okay, these are the sketches yesterday. Have to re-sketch on A4 size paper. Don't laugh PLEASE. I BEG you!

My lion which looked like a monkey

This sketch looks like a retard fish. LOL!

Damn, I'm really stupid. Remember my first post about Jac's Rejoice Meet-The-Fans session? I told all of you that I don't have a digital camera so I can't show you the stuffs I received and bought on that day. My God, how can I not remember that I have a webcam to capture it. That's how I took a picture on my sketches now. *stupid*

The front and back of the free instant picture.

There are 3 more things that I haven't take a picture with, which are the green star-shaped pillow, Satu Harapan limited edition CD and Rejoice Shampoo. *laughs* Will post it up next time, if I have the time. This webcam is a pain-in-the-ass because you'll have to take a full video and you can't take just a picture. So after taking the video, I'll have to edit it with Windows Movie Maker and take a snapshot from there. *mad*

I'm going to do my homework soon which is sketching my one-hour-sketches and have to hand in on Monday. *sighs* Thank God, she asked us to draw easy stuffs such as spoons and cups but this will only stay for a week. Next week will be some other drawings, I'm going to start crying soon. *cries*

By the way, before I forget, Lee Yen's name during my last post is actually Li Yen and the girl that car-pools with me is Khai Ling. Just found out the exact spelling today. Sorry... *shys*

Sketching the sketches

2007-05-31T20:15:00.000+08:00

Looks like someone got confused with Graphic Design and Multimedia course with Multimedia and Graphic Design course. Well, if it says Graphic Design and Multimedia wouldn't that mean it will emphasize more on design than multimedia. Same goes to Multimedia and Graphic Design, which would mean it will emphasize more on multimedia instead of design. Unfortunately, UTAR only provide Graphic Design and Multimedia. *sighs*

Drawing 1 doesn't look so bad, the lecturer actually taught us how to draw. *laughs* She brief us about the materials needed (Materials AGAIN!) and ask us to draw 2 image. A lion head and a fish but you know what my lion looked like a monkey and my fish's mouth looks retarded. I was laughing throughout the whole drawing session. I am redrawing now, because all these sketches will be compiled at the end of the semester. Drawing 1 is 100% coursework, no final exam except for a mid-term. Damn, Drawing 1 got homeworks. We have to draw one-hour-sketches every week and hand in during tutorial class. Sketch what? Spoons, cups, just anything. Basic sketches for the first tutorial. My tutorial class is on Monday and I have to sketch one-hour-sketches this weekend.

I found out something very interesting today about my course. I think... I think... I'm the youngest. Born on 1988 is actually very young in this course, majority that I knew had just finished their STPM which means they are born on 1987 or 1986. My course representative is 1987 if I'm not mistaken. The Drawing 1 lecturer asked her to get the projector and laptop, she just turned and asked who can help her carry the projector although it's not really heavy, and maybe Lee Yen doesn't know how big is the projector? (I hope I got Lee Yen's name correct or I'll be killed if she reads this) So I volunteered because I know where the ICT Centre is and other UTAR stuffs. I also briefed her on what a course representative should do because she's still new in UTAR. *laughs* I think I want to be a class representative for my tutorial class. Although I might be the youngest in the whole course but I'm responsible. (Am I?) *shy*

I got to know quite a number people today. I think there are about 10 people. Let's see... Lee Yen, Min Ting, two Klang girls. (Sorry, I forgot your names. Will ask for it again tomorrow. *shy*) Then there's a spontaneuos friend making session with Joe, Lemon and another guy (Sorry, forgot your's too. *shy*) right before Advertising Design starts. Talk to another new friend, Alan, during the class. Advertising Design lecturer was so fun, he crack up jokes but what he is going teaching is so boring. You know why? He's teaching 'History on Graphic Design'. Oh My God, I hate History and I had never once pass my History since I was Form 4. NEVER! Believe it or not? I fail that subject during SPM too. *sad*

One of the Klang girl lives near my area and we can carpool because she's in the same class I'm in, Yay! Oh, did I forget to mention that I know what tutorial class that I'm in already? I'm in Tutorial 3 but the name list is not out yet, Lee Yen went to the Faculty Office to asked for Graphic Design students' name list and I took a look at the list but my name it's still not it so I asked the person-in-charge and she told me I'm in Tutorial 3. Still waiting for a call from the Klang girl, doesn't know whether she wants to follow my car for tomorrow's class.

Argh, even Drawing 1 needs it's own materials.

Drawing 1
A3 Drawing Pad
Sketch Book A3 Size
Broad and Fine Tip Marker (Black and Gray)
Drawing Pencils and Colour Pencils
Black and White Pencil-Type Charcoal (Hard, Medium and Soft)
Layout Papers
Kneaded Eraser
Paper Stump
Masking Tape
A piece of A2 Wooden Board

I want to start re-sketching the lion and the fish. Will post it here after I finish sketching and PLEASE don't laugh.

Multimedia and Graphic Design? NO!

2007-05-30T19:13:00.000+08:00

It's been 5 days since I last blog, everyone is scolding me saying that I'm not a potential blogger, always blog 'mati'. What to do, I'm really lazy and I actually said I want to blog during my degree programme. *sighs*

Okay, let's start with the first day of my degree programme and the very first class was Colour Studies. Graphic Design students combine with Advertising students in one lecture hall. That time, I don't even know anyone. I felt so lost. If I'm not mistaken, the lecturer's name is Cik Mardziah and another one which I didn't actually pay any attention to her name although she's the Graphic Design lecturer. *laughs*

First-week-lectures always finish early, about 1 hour. Basically she briefed us on the courseworks and how the marking scheme works. I was so shocked to hear her saying that we need to draw using our OWN HANDS for designing. NO WAY! I don't know how to draw with my hands, the reason I chose this is because it's Multimedia and Graphic Design, it should be about computers and stuffs such as using Adobe Photoshop or Adobe Illustrator to design. You know what I found out after that? It's Graphic Design and Multimedia not the other way round. *cries* It's not fair when Advertising students get to use softwares to design and Graphic Design students design manually. Not forgetting to mention, Colour Studies overall marking is 80% for coursework and 20% for final exam. I'm sure to get very low marks on coursework because I really don't know how to draw with my hands. *cries* My first-class degree is gone. *sobs* I'll list all the materials needed for the whole semester at the end.

And that was Monday's class, let move on to Tuesday's where I was very pissed off.

The first class on Tuesday was Bahasa Kebangsaan at 9.30a.m. to 11.00a.m. and continues from 12.00p.m. to 1.30p.m. and then the second class was Visual Communication which starts at 4.00p.m. till 6.00p.m. There's a 3 hours gap in between the 2 subjects. Oh My God, how I am going to survive in that place without anyone to talk to and hang out together. Okay, I thought of worrying about that later after the Bahasa Kebangsaan class. So, I went took a seat while waiting for the lecturer to come in. Talked to 2 guys and our conversation didn't go very well, it's like we have nothing to talk about, our interests are not the same. Just then the lecturer came in and this is what she said.

Lecturer : Selamat pagi dan selamat sejahtera kepada semua. Semua orang di sini dari Graphic Design dan Psychology kan? Dan ini adalah subjek Bahasa Kebangsaan betul?

There's like 100 people and about 20 answered her question including me. I'm a good student okay? *shy* The following statement seriously gave me a shock.

Lecturer : Jadi saya nak beritahu kamu semua, sesiapa yang Bahasa Melayu dia masa SPM dapat A1,A2,B3,B4,C5 dan C6........

TOLONG KELUAR SEKARANG!

Oh My God, WHY?! I'm a good student, what did I do wrong?

Lecturer : Sebab sesiapa yang dapat credit dan ke atas boleh 'exempt' dari mengambil 'subject' ini.

That means I don't need to take this subject. *screams happily* Then I take a look at the time on my handphone. 9.45a.m. WHAT?! Nine-fourty-five? That's like 6 more hours before my next class! Where did the 3 hours gap go? Why did it MULTIPLY itself? I'm so alone and I'm going to cry soon.

Those 2 guys I mentioned earlier went back to thier respective houses. See, I told you we don't get along well. Didn't even bid farewell. Okay, and then I went to the notice board to look for my name and which tutorial class I'm in. UTAR is so slow, so useless and it's a pile of junk. I don't even know what class I'm in, they asked me to check back in a few days time. This was told on Monday, so I checked on Tuesday and to my surprise I saw name lists. Yay, the name list is out and my course only has 3 tutorial classes and it was very easy to scan through the names. So, I scanned the classes one by one, looking for Gan Jay Han. Tutorial 1 - NO! , Tutorial 2 - NO! *sighs*

That means I'm in tutorial 3. *scans on tutorial 3 list* Tutorial 3 - NO!

WHAT?! Where is my name? Why am I not on the list? This is the latest list and my name is not in it. I already paid my bills and you're telling me I'm not registered? Fine, then I went to the faculty office and asked 'bout whether the list is finalized. They said it's not and check back in a few days time. If it's NOT finalized, why did you even bother to put it up? All of you are so stupid. Brainless!

Was so pissed off, and remembered that I haven't take my picture for my student ID card. Went there and saw that there was a long queue, and all girls. Never mind, I have like 6 hours to waste. So I went in and took a so-called-prisoners' paper. It has our name, ID number (Which I don't f***ing have), address and IC number. You need to hold that paper up when the photographer is taking your picture, looks like a prisoner.

So I went and queue up, not even 1 minute of queuing, the person-in-charge called me and asked me to go first. I don't even know why but who cares, as long I don't need to queue. Suddenly, I felt this chill that went up my spine. As I turned and look at the queue, about 16 girls stared at me with the f***-you look or the I'm-going-to-kill-you look. But it wasn't my fault, I didn't ask to go first. Then the photographer passed me a blazer and it was so small (Or was it that I'm fat? *sad*). I almost cannot fit but managed to at the end. Took the required pictures and quickly ran out of the room, if not, I'll be murdered by the looks on their faces.

And then there's 5 hours and 30 minutes left to go, was so bored and called my foundation friends and luckily their class starts at 3p.m. and I asked them out to Midvalley. So I drove there and spent a few hours in Midvalley doing nothing. Oh, I actually did something. I checked my Public Bank account and the amount writen on my pay cheque is in it. *happy* The first time I key in my password, it was wrong and I was so scared, 3 wrong attempts and the ATM card will be lost forever. I'm not really sure what my password is because I have like so many passwords to remember. 'Dapat-lah jugak' at the end, if not I wouldn't have tell you that the cheque has been deposit right?

Drove back to my campus at around 2.30p.m. and went to the internet lab. Chat with a few friends while waiting for the time to fly pass. The internet lab connection is like slower than snails, it took about 5 minutes to load Jacsville's forum. Damn pissed off. Log out at 3.30p.m. and went to the class.

Saw that guy I talked to on Monday and sat beside him, right at the back of the class. I'm not used to sitting at the back, I'm a good student so I must sit in front. *shy* I vowed that I'll sit in front next time, even if there's no one sitting beside me. Visual Communication lecture didn't take 1 hour to finish, and I thought all lectures on the first week finishes early. She used up all 2 hours and what the hell, even Visual Communication need to design manually. Must buy brushes, poster colours, colours pencils for almost all the subject. I feel like a small child learning arts in school. I don't know how to draw with my hands, I only know how to draw and design using the computer. It ends at 6p.m. and that time Federal Highway is having its massive jam.

Oh My God, someone please kill me.

So, there's nothing to say about after the massive jam, I reached home and do my daily routine which is chatting, checking e-mail and other internet stuffs. As well as today, nothing interesting. Similiar with yesterday night, just include eating lunch and dinner, playing PS2 and sleep. Oh, I did these on Sunday, I think. Take a look.

Jac is going to be the winner of IKON Malaysia. *screams*

I replaced the AIM award with the IKON award. *evils*

Oh My God, Jac won IKON Malaysia.

Note: Ini hanyalah rekaan semata-mata, ia tidak berkaitan dengan yang mati atau yang hidup.

Now, the list of materials that are needed for Colour Studies and Visual Communication.

Colour Studies
A3 Sketch Book
2 Flat & Round Brushes (No.4, 6, 8, 9, 10)
Poster Colours (Cobalt Blue, Red, Yellow, Black and White)
Palette
Water Container
Towel

I seriously didn't know that brushes had types. *laughs* And they even have numbers. I don't even know what flat and round brush looks like and what does that numbers mean.

Visual Communication
Drawing Pen (Micron) 0.2, 0.4, 0.16
Metal Ruler 12" and 18"
Cutter (NT)
Cutting Mat
Set Square
Circular Template
Oval Template
Poster Colours
French Curve
Flat and Pointed Brushes
Art Block
Spray Mount (3M)
Art Gum (Faber-Castell)
Lighter Fluid
4B Pencils
Masking Tape 1"
BOFA Set

This is even worst than the earlier subject and I think those word in the brackets are the brand. It should be the brand because I copy this down from lecture slides. There's so many things there that I never heard before. And why do we need lighter fluid for, to burn designs that are not successful or ugly? What the heck is a BOFA set. I know what's a sofa set but I don't know what the hell a BOFA set is. How much does all of these cost? It looks so freaking expensive.

Art-type people, please help me with this.

P.S. This message is directly to gummy-boy, I'm very sure you know what the hell that was listed above. I need your help! Where can I buy those stuffs?

One day with full of results

2007-05-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

I'm so filled with results - American Idol results, Foundation Studies results and my working results (Wages).

I took my wages at my ex-work place and it was my first time receiving a cheque as my pay. *excited* Well, I never worked before and this was my first time! *laughs* I worked for 8-days as a telemarketer and on the cheque, a sum of RM502.50 was written on it. RM60 per day, I guess it's worth it for a part-timer. The extras are from the OT, doing some cut-and-paste job.

Went to my campus to ask for my Foundation Studies results and the person-in-charge said it's not out yet. Fine, then I drove to another faculty, which is not in a walking distance, the Faculty of Admission and Credit Evaluation for my "missing" offer letter. They told me the offer letter will only be given out after the results. My god, UTAR is so damn slow. What the f*** are they doing? I'm so fed up with UTAR because of their atrocious usage of English language and their services!

Drove to Public Bank to bank-in my cheque in to my account. Well, as you know, this is my first time so I asked my friend to do it for me. *laughs* I can't wait to withdraw the money, I want to buy a new hand phone or maybe a MP3 player.

Bought some PS2 games at Shaw Centerpoint, Klang while surveying for second-hand handphones. I'm thinking whether to buy K750i or W800i, I like K750i more because it's black in colour and W800i is kind of ugly. Enough 'bout phones, let's talk about it after I withdraw my money.

And the winner of American Idol 2007 is... JORDIN SPARKS!

I sort of expected it because it was so obvious that she's going to win. If it’s Jordin VS Melinda finale, then I can't predict at all but Jordin VS Blake finale, they don't even need to compete at all to see who's going to win the title of American Idol. But I love the finale song. It's so nice, I'm so going to download it tomorrow.

Not forgetting to mention about the Foundation Studies results. I was watching American Idol and all of the sudden, one of my foundation studies friend called me and told me that the results are out. So I ran upstairs to my room and open the UTAR Intranet to check for it. I was so freaking scared when I typed in my ID and password. I was thinking what will happen if I failed? Please God, let me pass!

And...

I passed! *screams* Got CGPA 3.1, which is classified as Second-Lower Class Degree if this is the result I'm going to get in my Degree Programme. But at least it better than a Passing Degree and why talk about it when this is just Foundation Studies results. I know CGPA 3.1 is not something to be proud of but if you're in my shoes, you'll know why I feel proud of myself. Imagine, I failed 3 subjects for my SPM and I only got 5 credits, my SPM result is so bad. So for me, getting CGPA 3.1 is like a great achievement and it's more than above average. I want to get a lot better, and I wished to get First Class Degree for my Degree Programme. *laughs*

I wish I could do it. Let's start dreaming! *snoozes off*

I'll give you a KISS!

2007-05-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

No, I don't mean as in literally kissing you. K-I-S-S, Keep It Short and Simple. And again no, I'm not saying that this time I'm going to blog it short and simple. It's something which I'm going to blog about.

Today was the worst day of the year. My god, can you like imagine sitting on a low-classed chair for 5 hours and not being able to stretch your body at all. My butt was 'opening its flower' (Direct translation from a mandarin word, 'Kai Hua') and it was numb and I couldn't even feel my butt anymore so I guess this is what people say, Pain In The Ass. *laughs* I was actually forced to go for the briefing, I didn't want to go. I thought of registering and go back afterwards but some b**** stopped me and say that I'll have to go for the briefing, it's important. I tried to give excuses but she told me, I can do those stuffs later, after the briefing. *mad*

I'm always having problem of thinking a title when I blog but today I got it instantly when I was listening to that dumb talk. Throughout the whole 5 hours shit, I can hear this particular word, KISS, from the emcee and the talking idiots when they start their stupid speech.

Idiot : I know you all are tired. I'll keep it short and simple.
Me : *talks to myself* If you know then shut the f*** up and let us go!

Not only that stupid KISS word, this phrase also was mentioned almost every time when they are reaching the end, Just A Little Bit More.

Idiot : Just a little bit more about what I'm saying earlier.
Me : Good, so we can go home...
Idiot : Bla...Bla...Bla... *for 30 minutes*
Me : What the heck is with the A-LITTLE-BIT-MORE?
Yee Won : I don't know.
Idiot : And, just a little bit more on this.
Me : F*** YOU! GET A LIFE!
Idiot : Bla...Bla...Bla... *for another 20 minutes or so*
Me : I really hope this is the end or I'll go crazy, seriously!
Yee Won : I hope so too.
Idiot : Now, let me tell you about my life.
Me : OH MY F***ING GOD! DO I LOOK LIKE I'M BOTHERED WITH YOUR STUPID LIFE-LESS LIFE? LET ME OUT OF HERE THIS INSTANT!

Note : Those words that are upper-case in the dialog was what that I told myself. I don't have the courage to actually say that! *cries*

And there's like almost 7 talks and 5 out of 7 talks, their English are like... WOAH! You couldn't imagine! Let me demonstrate a little bit.

Solli arh, this palaglaph is dedicated to them so prease don't mind on my usage of Engrish language orh. You know hor, they are talked about the facurty, talk about the internet rabs and other stuff-lah. I couldn't understand some of the words used wor, I think they make up some words that I never heard before one. Kept laughing and laughing-ler during the talk, so veli the funny one. They some more got ask us to legistering our account before using the rab wor. ASK US TO LEGISTERING OUR ACCOUNT LOR! DON'T FORGET! PREASE LEGISTERING YOUR ACCOUNT BEFORE USE!

Okay! Stop, if I keep this up hor, I'll get use to it-lah.
Oh My God! STOP IT!

Phew... Okay... The reason I don't want to go for the stupid briefing was because I got no friends and it will be so boring if I don't have anyone to talk to. Thank god, I started the conversation asking what course are they in to the one sitting beside me. And I got to know 2 girls, one sitting on my left and one sitting on my right. You might know the one sitting on the right, I had already mentioned above. Her name is Yee Won and the one sitting on my left is Shani. And surprisingly, she from Klang and studied in the same school that I'm from but I never seen her before, neither did she. Unfortunately, both of them aren't in the same course that I'm in. Shani chose Broadcasting while Yee Won chose Psychology and I had chosen Graphic Design, how pathetic. I've been thinking whether to change course to Broadcasting, it sounds like fun. Sigh, I seriously have no idea. I still don't have any friends from my course. *cries*

I blogged so much about the stupid talk. I don't want to talk about that anymore. *angry*

I watched Ugly Betty episode 23 today and I cried, can you imagine that? I cried! My tears rolled down all of the sudden. It was so sad and it makes people cry, seriously. Betty's sister, Hilda was getting married and her husband, Santos, was killed by a robber, he was shot in a grocery shop and the reason he was there is because he wanted to buy something for his son's performance on that night and he promised to go and watch the performance. Why must he die, WHY! I cried at the part where Betty went to the place where his nephew, Justin was performing. She went and told Hilda that Santos is dead. *sobs*

I'll cry when I see someone cries. Her expression was like so real that my tears actually rolled down looking at her crying. *sobs*

And this is how episode 23 ends.

Heroes episode 23 was boring, I don't really like the show anymore since that timeline thingy confuses me but I do continue to watch as well. So, Sylar died at the end of the show. It's such a typical script for a TV-show, the good ones always win. Do we really have special powers? Maybe I do, my sixth sense is always accurate. Ask Choo Yen, she knows about it! *laughs*

Earlier just now, Teng messaged me on WLM (Which was known as MSN before this) asking me to do a banner for Henley. She asked Syazwan to do it first but she still insisted of asking me to do another one. So I did a simple one, colourful background and his name with a picture of him, of course. And this was the outcome of my design.

Oh my god, how much have I typed today? It's so long and I thought it would be a KISS article. I guess I'll stop, so see ya! *laughs*

P.S. : Today is Choo Yen's birthday, I wished her earlier this morning during that bloody talk. So I'll give you another happy birthday wish in my blog. Happy Birthday, Choo Yen! *laughs*

Why doesn't anyone comment about my singing? Is it really that bad? Please do comment, I want to improve!

Expand, Enlarge and Exaggerate

2007-05-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

Because of the title, you guys thought I'm dirty minded and talked 'bout dirty stuffs right? *pissed off* Got nothing to do about dirty minded-lah, just read futher and you'll know why I chose that as my title.

All I did today was mostly singing and recording. *laughs* I tried my best to sing Satu Harapan and well, the outcome was... listen for yourself on your right side of the screen, Media Player. Okay, I do admit that I'm not a good singer but I love to sing.

Choo Yen introduced me this new hair-do-thingy website, where you can change your hair style but it comes out looking fake as ever. She pasted the url around 2p.m. but I didn't bother to open it *evils*, until right before I blog when I asked for the link again. I did play with some hair-dos and one of them came out quite real, although it still looks fake to me so I won't post that picture up. Not forgetting, I saw Choo Yen and her friend's personal picture. *laughs*

Right before I blog, I was like telling Choo Yen that there's nothing to blog about today and she said blog about singing.

Choo Yen says:
So you say, Today I spent my day by singing!

I was trying to "bomb" Choo Yen that the sentence can be elaborated into few more sentences but could not get the word -ELABORATE-. I knew that the word starts with an E. Was total blank at that time, so asked Choo Yen to think of that word. And what in the world, she was also blank. So she came out with some word that starts with an E such as EXPAND, ENLARGE and the worst was EXAGGERATE which made me laughed like mad. At the end, she got the word when I was busy typing my blog. *laughs*

I'm going for my degree orientation tomorrow, I am scared because I might be alone. I'm the only one from my class that changed to Faculty of Arts and Social Science because I changed to Bachelor of Arts Multimedia and Graphic Design. I'm such a shy person, how to make friends?! We'll see how it goes tomorrow. *cries*

Oh, I missed a post yesterday. I was so suprised that Jac told me that she doesn't take drugs, as in not taking Panadols, when we were chatting in Y!Messenger and the chat goes like this.

Jac : I headache now!
Revolution : Eat some panadols.
Jac : Nonononoooo....
Jac : I dont do drugs!
Jac : Hahaha!
Revolution : HAHAHA!
Revolution : Panadol saja... jadi kalo sakit kepala mau buat ape?
Jac : Tahan je...
Revolution : Susah-nya...

Note : Nicknames had been changed to avoid disturbance in Jac's Y!Messenger.

Still waiting for an answer from Myspace admins. Hope they'll reply me before Jac makes decision on the Myspace profiles and I missed IKON Buzz today, hope that someone will upload it so I can watch.

Ribenababy in the house!

2007-05-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

Woke up around 1 p.m. today, I think so I'm not sure! *laughs* Went down and ate my lunch (Which was supposedly to be my breakfast!). Had 'Nasi Lemak' and 'Chai Kuey' with Ribena. *slurps* No one was at home every day at this time. My mum is out to Klang Parade to do her crochet thingy then later had to fetch my small sister back from school, they come home at around 4 p.m. which leaves me alone for 3 hours.

I went back to my room after my "lunch" and started surfing the net. Every day I'll stop by Jacsville to see latest updates, so I checked the forum posts and nothing new. Went back to the homepage and saw ribenababy in the chat-box, I was like "Jac ke?", I asked and she went like "Revo, don't you know I have 2 nicks?" 'Malu' only kena bombed by her. After chatting with her for a while and then a few came online - Cindy, Brian and Kai Ma!

And imagine, the first topic was about ghost, freaked me out cause I was alone at home. They were saying that there were other visitors in that bungalow they rent for the first Jacsville trip. Brian said that 'thing' disturbed him and Faiz by pulling their legs and hands when they were sleeping but they saw nothing. Jac said that 'thing' want to party with them as well. Priest came in suddenly and chats for a while. He said that they should bring holy water with them during the trip. *laughs*

I told Jac that if she was there, they don't need even holy water. All they need was her voice! Gemilang, Realiti.... Gemilang, Realiti.... Lari terus all those 'things'! Then she said I 'perli' her. 'Mana ada perli?' *cries* and I said, it's a compliment because she's a goddess and her voice are like prayers. 'Nyanyi je' all 'lari' already! *laughs*

She wasn't there for a while sometimes, and then she told us she was trying to register for Myspace using her own name but she can't because www.myspace.com/jaclynvictor was chosen by Jac's fan, I think, and right after she told us 'bout that she totally disappears and I tried to message her on Y!Messenger, she was invisible. No wonder I didn't see her online!

She asked me how she can get that name for herself, so I told her that maybe I'll try to contact the owner of that profile. She created a substitute account for herself first in case the owner of that profile doesn't want to give in the account. (No, I cannot tell you the URL for the substitute account. I promised her.) After creating the account, she said she got to go to work already and I replied that I'll SMS her on the updates about the profile.

I tried to message the owner of the profile and I did get a reply. Most importantly, I managed to persuade him to give me the registered e-mail and password but sadly, there's a problem. The owner forgot the password for the e-mail because if we want to change the username which is also the e-mail address, the confirmation mail will be sent to the current e-mail address. I SMS-ed Jac about the good news and she was quite happy for the first few couple of SMS-es and then the bad news but she said that we could sort it out soon which I really hope so.

Hope to hear some good news from the Myspace admins.

Satu Harapan

2007-05-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

Satu harapan dan.... harapan itu tercapai juga!
Yes, I managed to go to Midvalley today for Jaclyn Victor's Rejoice kinda like Meet-The-Fans session. I called at least 5 people and hope that at least one of them could follow me to Midvalley (This statement excluding you, Choo Yen) because my mom wouldn't let me go out alone. It's so embarassing to tell my friends that when they 'ajak' to go any where. They'll be like "How old are you already? Still small is it? Need mum's permission!".

Well, I personally believe that no one in this world that had never lied before. So I lied to get myself to meet Jac. (I would die for Jac seriously. Her voice is something to die for!) I told my mum my friend is waiting for me in a shopping complex nearby to watch movie. (Clever ain't I?)

Listening to 'Satu Harapan' live was like the BOMB, it was so good. By the way,have to buy 2 bottles of Rejoice shampoo to get a CD and a pillow. Other than that, an autograph session and free instant-picture with Jac! How cool is that for only RM20? I don't have a camera to show you what I've owned today but I'll 'curi' someone's pictures that has it. *evil laughs*

This conversation came up during the autograph session today.

Jac : Revo, what's your real name?
Me : Um... Jay Han? J-A-Y H-A-N!
Jac : Nice what? Why call Revo?
Me : Revo sounds nicer! Hahaha...
Jac : No-lah, Jay Han nicer!

But she still write Dearest Revo. *laughs*

The name Revo also came up by the nickname I use in every single forum that I registered, Revolution. So, normally after chatting in the forum for a while, there will be gatherings such as Malaysian Idol gatherings, One In A Million gatherings, Jacsville gatherings and a lot more. When all of us meet and start to introduce, we'll definately say the nickname we used in the forum so it's like "Hi, I'm Revolution!" or "Hi, I'm Revo!". That is how the name spread around for 3 years and haven't stopped yet! Instead of putting my english name as Ryan, I think should put as Revo. Unique right? *crazy*

Jacsville's getting signature on the free instant-photo!

Jacsville's family photo!

Jac wrote a short message behind all those photos, it's so nice of her.
Mine is read out like this :

Dearest Revo,
Thank you for being here today! Means a lot to me!
Hope to see you real soon! Take care alright? Hugs!!
Love,
Jaclyn

*screams* I can't wait to see her again! I'll be meeting her next Friday on the 25th, hope I get to go this time without lying. To tell the truth, I hate lying but sometimes we're forced to.

I Hope is Satu Harapan's English version and Oh My God! It's so good with the ad-libs but lack of the vocal power after the bridge. Satu Harapan has a lot more vocal power which make both of the version equal. No one get an award for being the best version. I'm so falling in love with this song. The CD came with Satu Harapan, I Hope, Minus One Track, Gemilang and Di Bawah Pohon Asmara. Yay, there's a Minus One track. I'm gonna start singing!

I'm going to make 2 sentences with the song's title!
I Hope I can go on the 25th for Nite of Soulful Stars recording session, featuring Jaclyn Victor and Daniel Lee as guest artiste! Ini adalah salah Satu Harapan saya untuk minggu depan. *laughs*

p.s. Although I 'curi' his photos, still must give credit-lah. Thanks Yik Hoong from Jacsville who is in the photo as well. Thanks a lot for your photos. I don't have a digital camera. *cries*